Okay so I dont know if this has been long awaited buuut...
Here I am.  I guess introduction is in order here.  Lets see.. 
I was born in manhattan. I grew up in brooklyn for the first half of my life with my grandma.  Grew up the second half in queens with friends of the family.  Then finally got to live with my mother.  You may be wondering why that is.  Well I am not ashamed to say that mom was an alchoholic and addict for half of her life.  I am also not ashamed to say that she passed away about three years ago.  After all if not for her struggle I wouldn't be the person I am.  I wouldnt know the people I do.  I wouldnt have gained knowledge and wisdom.  Watching a person you love die, especially from AIDS, can have a profound effect on you.  Both negative and positive. And I dont mean to preach but I think that if most people can really look at their suffering they can learn from it and move on to greater things.
 
       
So thats what I try to do.  Help others, even the evil ones.  Acknoledge their pain while pushing mine aside.  Alot of people take advantage but I am not discouraged. No one can hurt me but me.

       
So I know there are those here that know me. And maybe it looked like I was trying to be someone I am not.  And I guess that is true.  I had to go through a transitional period to know who I am.  But now I know.  I am no vamp.  I am no dragon or spider, though I loved those who were or at least claimed to be.  I am me.  I live for me and those who I love.  I dont live for status or power and I really dont care if I am accepted into the fold.  But I do care when I am looked upon as weak.  For weak I never was and weak I never will be. 

 I hope I dont seem like a downer,  I'm not.  In fact if you met me you'd never know that I have been through what I have.  Its hard to believe that so much pain can create such a somewhat positive and down right chipper person. I just dont like to use the pain I go through as an excuse for not living.  I live everyday.  Through love that I have found in so many,  My fiance (Uriel) and my family.  And my kitty,  Sora.  I love you kitty!!  They help keep me sane.  Or else I might still be at the cube. (Thank God or whomever that I'm not!!)